“You were red, and you liked me because I was blue
But you touched me, and suddenly I was a lilac sky
Then you decided purple just wasn’t for you”
We finally broke up.
Guess I’ve been dreading it for quite some time now. Still, it left me broken-hearted.
A year ago, I lost him to God. I was experiencing pains I never imagined exist. But then, I convinced myself that it was okay to feel pained and that it was a natural part of life. I gradually learned to live on my own. I succeeded in enjoying my life in the most colorful way possible. My English thrived. My singing was better than ever. I even exercised, which used to feel more or less a chore than a hobby. To put it mildly, I was fine. Everything was alright with the world. I was alone, for sure, but never lonely.
And then guess what?
You came along. . .
We were hurt lovers who reunited in the right place at the right time. Something about us just clicked. You broke down all my walls. Or rather, I let all my guards down for you. You took my hands. You showered me with your warm embraces. I started picking up on your language, your taste in food, your passion for photography and badminton. We traveled to new places to discover and break our limits. I became the central subject of your pictures. You turned to be the most important person in my life. I woke up to the sunlight shining in your silhouette.
. . . only to leave me hanging.
Tears came flooding back. Pains I tried to subside rise to the surface. Wounds you once healed drip blood to my fragile heart.
You are not to blame though. I was so eager to love somebody whole-heartedly that I began creating false fantasies about you and me.
I don’t want to let you know that I miss you. But I do. Terribly.
No matter what happens between us, you will still be someone I care about. If one day, things get rough, just remember that you always have my shoulder to lean on.
And I wanna feel you, too
I wanna see the sunrise and your sins
Just me and you
Light it up, on the run
Let’s make love, tonight
Make it up, fall in love, try
But you’ll never be alone
I’ll be with you from dusk till dawn
Baby, I’m right here
I’ll hold you when things go wrong”